This is in no way an EMO journal entry. I detest emo crap. No this is merely an update on my on-going depression. I'm an optimist by nature, stuff just sucks lately. Anyway, I got this awesome job that was paying pretty well. So my boss even starts talking about how I could be getting a raise and a bonus at the end of the season possibly equal to may pay durring that season of work. Then, a mere two days later, they lay me off for some pretty bogus reasons. No, the reason they layed me off is because I'm only 20. The job was a fairly proffesional IT position and the owner of the company called me a smart ass. Yeah right, he just doesn't like how young I was. The guy who had to give me the news made it as clear as he could that it wasn't his decision without leaving real evidence that the boss fired me over my age. I'd sue, but I know I can't prove it in a court of law. I'm fairly upset because of this. And the part that makes it hillarious is that the guy who had to lay me off even said that next year he would hire me back on if I applied again and they had an open position. So yeah, I'm really cheesed off at the world right now for being an ass of my age. So all the old people can just piss off. Yeah, I mean every last one of you ass fuckers over 30 that can't remember they were perfectly competent at 20. The guy I was working with appreciated everything about how I worked even. I feel sorry for him having lay me off. He clearly didn't want to do it. I was the only full time IT staff member other than himself. Time management problems my butt. This was entirely because of my age. I was even given some warning about this happening. He told me that the boss didn't like me because of my age. He clearly doesn't believe you can be proffesional trully before you turn 24 and get your bachelors degree, or maybe a masters. The ass fucking bastard!!! I almost wish his company would tank entirely. However if it did several of my friends that really need the money would lose their jobs because they are employed by him. Anyway, I think I'll end this journal entry before it deserves an R-restricted rating for language. Yeah, I think I'll leaving it here with this teen-age rating still in tact. Man, all this stress is causing my psyche to crack like it did two years ago, that is not good. I can't fall apart again, not like before. The stress has already brought back my terrible ensomnia. I need to get a girl friend again. I'm just so scared it will end up like before. I don't want to live through that again, she hurt me really bad. I was willing to give up a lot just to be with her, and she didn't even care that she hurt me. Yeah well, she litterally turned into a slut a short while after leaving me, so that explains a lot about why we didn't work out. She wanted sex really bad, and I'm a virgin untill I'm married and that's all there is to it. Anyway, I'm rambling incoherently now.

So yeah, I guess this is a desperate cry for attention.